3 am will never be the same...

Ah... what am i doing? I write this post on 4.36 am, not doing anything beside browsing like a fool. My mind and heart even not here...

My projects? I'm bored to do it. Just wish there's a time machine. I'll just fast forward to after the trial, and feel my freedom back.

But.... I've just heard a story. Scary and shocking, and I like hold my breath while listening. Another evidence, that God sent to me, to tell me, you don't know anything about this world.

The God, tell me, you don't know what pain is, you don't know what misery is.
You don't know how to appreciate, to be grateful.
You don't know how much love is given to you.
You don't know... yet I hope you know now.

My mind is numb, my heart is still. I had nothing to say, just because a guilty feeling start to grow inside of me. I should have known better. I really should have. But I didn't.

I want to ask for forgiveness, but I dare not. What's the use? It can't change anything.

Stupid me.

Ohh.... Sweet Disposition

To prove that I'm actually become crazy, I'll post something again between my hectic moments. Hohoho... This time it is lyrics from Ost. 500 Days of Summer. I wish I could watch it at Jiffest, but can't find time for it.

Sweet Disposition
by The Temper Trap

Sweet disposition
Never too soon
Oh reckless abandon,
Like no one’s watching you

A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh

Just stay there
Cause I’ll be comin’ over
While our bloods still young
It’s so young, it runs
Won’t stop til it’s over
Won’t stop to surrender

Songs of desperation
I played them for you

A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh

Just stay there
Cause I’ll be comin’ over
While our bloods still young
It’s so young, it runs
Won’t stop til it’s over
Won’t stop to surrender

A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs (won’t stop til it’s over)

A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs (won’t stop til it’s over)

A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs (won’t stop til it’s over)

A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A moment, a love
A moment, a love (won’t stop to surrender)

The bold words just to show my determination to go through all of this! Fighting!!

download it here

Syalalala.....

Haloo lagi... lagi ada waktu di sela-sela merender 3d, jadi kupikir iseng-iseng posting sesuatu di sini. Sebenarnya dah ada beberapa topik yang sudah terngiang-ngiang di kepala, tapi berhubung belum mood untuk menggali lebih dalam, jadi biarlah itu untuk lain kali saja. =P

Saya cuma ingin berbagi beberapa kosakata yang sudah dipelajari selama menghadapi skripsi ini.
1. kutu
2. keriting
3. kriboww...
4. cad-ing
5. hm.... satukan semua kata di atas dalam satu kalimat, dan begitulah perasaan saya terhadap skripsi ini =P

Selain itu, saya juga belajar beberapa kosakata Korea, thanks to a friend, hehehe...
1. sarangheyoo.... (aku cinta kamu)
2. miandaheoo.... (maaf)
3. cinca?..... (sungguh?)
4. bogoshipda... (aku rindu kamu)
5. buin... (istri)
6. shillang... (suami)
7. noona... (kakak perempuan)
8. hyung... (kakak laki-laki)
9. sunbae... (senior)
10. dongsaeng.... (junior)
11. aigoo...... (haiyaa....)
12. aegyo... (cute act)

Aahh... itu dulu, masih belum cukup buat percakapan sih. =P Tapi bahasa korea itu sungguh rumit, ada imbuhan-imbuhan untuk menunjukkan hormat atau bahasa formal dkk, pengucapannya juga agak2 susah. Untung bahasa Indonesia ngga ribet banget seperti itu, hihihi...

Well, sekian intermezzo ini, back to 3d. ;P

This and That...

Okay...finally can overcome the desperado feeling and so on for a bit. And now my mood is like "I don't care anymore." Hihi...

But because I still have to do this once for all, then I'll just have some refreshing by writing a new post. This post will list things I will do once I get out of all of this "final" thing.

1. Sleeping as much as I want, or should I say hibernating.
2. Reading as much fanfic because most of them so funny and well written (in fact, that is what I'm doing now between my hectic moments =P)
3. Watching movies or DVDs.
4. Going mal to mal! I know it's silly, but this year I think I'd missed all those Christmas decoration and it frustrated me a bit.
5. Beach time!! This one will be a must. =P

Well, with all of this things listed, I'll keep my spirit working till my freedom come. =D