Lately my mood really is like a roller coaster. Light and swinging in the morning, grumpy at afternoon, sad and angry at night. And happened again on the next day. It's not, a very good sign.

PMS-ing maybe the reason. But after a while, I realize, this is me getting bored and sucked up.

Being a freelancer and working at home, it means I rarely go out and meet people. Hell... I even only take a bath once a day. Plus those extra works at home. My mom won't get any maid before Lebaran and my sister already get to college, leaving me all sweaty from sweeping and washing dishes and some other stuff.

I'm complaining about my life here. Hahaha...

It just feels like I have this energy inside of me that can't be released by simply doing my work in front of computer. And moping the floor. 

I feel like some part of me is dying. And worse, they replaced by hatred and anger toward myself. I think that's why at some moments, I feel like a jerk and useless person.

Or maybe again, I'm just over-analyze, worry too much, and should just live my life.