29 Desember 2010


Sepakbola sungguh mengagumkan. Saya menulis ini bukan sebagai fans sepakbola, namun sebagai warga Indonesia, yang tidak pernah berharap banyak pada persepakbolaan di tanah air karena minimnya prestasi. Tapi tahun ini, timnas Indonesia berhasil menarik hampir seluruh masyarakat Indonesia untuk menonton 90 menit permainan itu, bahkan yang tidak menyukainya sekalipun.

Apa yang menarik dari sepakbola dari segi permainan, mungkin saya tidak akan pernah tahu. Tapi sepakbola sebagai pemersatu, saya saksi hidupnya.

Saya yakin banyak yang tidak menyadari awal berlangsungnya Piala AFF seperti saya. Tapi kemenangan Indonesia pada beberapa pertandingan awal dengan skor cukup luar biasa, langsung mengundang perhatian. Yang kemudian, membuahkan satu trending topic di twitter "Timnas Indonesia". Dari timeline twitter, saya mulai mengenal nama-nama pemain Indonesia, seperti Irfan Bachdim, M. Ridwan, dan Christian Gonzales. Dari timeline twitter juga, saya bisa mengetahui perjalanan tim Indonesia di kompetisi ini sampai final.

Semua sudah mengetahui kekalahan kita di final, tapi saya tidak akan menulis tentang itu. Saya ingin memberitahukan kemenangan kita yang lain.

Kita berhasil mempertahankan beberapa trending topic di twitterland selama piala AFF ini. Timnas Indonesia, #loveindonesia, #garudafightsback, serta beberapa nama pemain Indonesia. Dan sejauh yang saya tahu, trending topic positif semacam ini adalah yang pertama. Sebelumnya, kita tanpa sengaja mempopulerkan Ariel Peterporn dan keong racun, lalu #prayforindonesia ketika bencana alam terjadi berturut-turut tahun ini.

Kini, dunia Lebih mengenal Indonesia. Tidak hanya tentang video porno atau dua ABG kurang kerjaan. Tapi juga garuda sebagai lambang negara Indonesia. I realize it's not big, but simply through twitter, our voices are heard, and people listen.

Jadi bohong kalau ada yang bilang semangat kesatuan dan persatuan sudah hilang sama sekali. Karena walaupun hanya lewat twitter, kita bersatu. Karena malam ini, kita sama-sama berjuang untuk kemenangan Indonesia. Dan sama-sama merasakan kebanggaan terhadap Garuda.

We do care about our nation, we support Indonesia, and when we're united, nothing can stop us.

Terima kasih untuk Timnas Indonesia, yang sudah menyadarkan saya akan hal ini. Let's fight together again at Sea Games 2011.

25 Desember 2010

Merry Merry Chirstmaass...

Actually, I don't celebrate Christmas as I'm not a Christian. But during my school period, I always celebrated it at my school. Kind of miss it all these years. Yesterday, I read my friend's tweets about Christmas cakes she got and I feel a bit envy for the cakes. So I thought about googling some pictures of Christmas cake just to satisfied my craving for sweets. Hehehe...

 A cake for Christmas wedding, I'll say. I'm a bit bothered by the Santa doll since it looked so small compared to the reindeer and carriage. Still, it's beautiful.

 I love the light blue color. Feel the winter breeze just by looking at it. 

Credit to the photographer for the composition I guess. Simple but looks good and delicious.

 Yeay to snowflakes theme!

 The stars are cute. I wonder if the gold stars are edible.

Merry Christmas to all of you. Share me some cakes please? Hehehe...

24 Desember 2010

Almost Christmas... Almost New Year..!

2010 is going to end!

Saya bingung harus merasa senang atau galau. Banyak sekali yang sudah dilalui di tahun 2010 ini. Mulai dari sidang skripsi, kelulusan, wisuda, sampai huru hara kerjaan freelance. Senang karena masih dapat kesempatan memulai dekade baru kehidupan, galau karena merasa pengembangan diri tahun ini terasa kurang.

I feel a bit funny too. Tahun kemarin, sama sekali ngga pusing sama tahun baru atau apa karena sedang sibuk-sibuknya berskripsyong ria. Tidak ada resolusi selain lulus dengan sebaik-baiknya. Tahun-tahun sebelumnya, masih dalam masa-masa kuliah, tidak perlu pusing dengan tujuan hidup ke depan. Dang! ternyata selama ini menjalani hidup kok gitu-gitu aja, tanpa tujuan jelas, hahahaha...

Jadi, sisa beberapa hari sebelum tahun baru ini, saya perlu mempersiapkan tujuan jangka pendek setahun ke depan. Dan bersungguh-sungguh untuk mencapainya. Fighting!

08 Desember 2010

New Project! Meet deDezain... ^^

So I decided to combine my passion for writing and design, and made this blog. Mostly it was a result for too much spare time, but after put more thoughts, I really would like to make it happen.

For now it only had three posts, one introduction and two translation articles. I'll try to write an article on my own, perhaps more about local designers and products. We have lots of them, but sometimes most of them are out of the radar. I really need to work on its design too. Looks like a lot of homeworks. =P

Anyway, please visit and leave comments if you like. ^^


Katy Perry - Firework

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em going "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

07 Desember 2010

Something I read...

"It’s sort of like the difference between hearing “you’re fucking ugly” your whole life and then suddenly having someone tell you, “you’re fucking beautiful.” They’re just words, but somehow they have the power to tilt your axis, shift your worldview just a little, jar you out of your funk and make you see a slightly different angle."

~javabeans on dramabeans.com

06 Desember 2010

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 1

I fell in love with the first movie, and I started to devour the books.
The second confused me, but it’s okay.
The third disappointed me, the fourth brought back my trust.
It shattered by the fifth.
I didn’t care enough to watch the sixth.
And seventh, lucky number it is, made me fall in love all over again.

I always predicted the movie will started with action on the go. Seven Harry(es?) flew to the sky with their escorts, attacked by Death Eaters. Magic wand shots everywhere. People shouted. Action.

I glad I was wrong, because I liked the beginning even better. Instead of jump into action, we saw emotional suspense. Harry, Ron, Hermione, in their time before everything started again. Mostly I love how Emma Watson portrayed Hermione. Sadness, confused, but determined. She planned it all. Even to the safety of her muggle parents.

The scene when she used Obliviate charm to her parents was not in the book. We knew it happened. But instead of put it into dialog, they chose to show it. And I know from the emotion I felt then, this movie was going to be great.

One of my favorite part in the book, where Harry woke up in Black’s residence and he saw Ron and Hermione’s hands like they hold each other till they fell asleep. I had wanted to dance around because I was so happy they inserted that small moments.

Of course, not all the details were the same. I read the book about a year ago so I don’t remember it all. But, that’s what makes this movie much much better than the previous ones. Even without those details, it didn’t felt choppy. They warped such long scenes at Godric Hollows into just few minutes, but it’s still good to watch. And thank God, they decided to make it to two parts. Although we have to wait another year for part two, at least we get double awesomeness.

I believe, Harry Potter will become a legend, a tale itself. Harry Potter has become an icon. I never knew a world full of wizards can be so exciting before him. And I’m sure in another ten or twenty years, I’ll sit back and read all those seven books again, reminded by my own memories about this time when I’m still young. And maybe I’ll tell those stories to my children, and grandchildren, start with “Once upon a time, there’s a boy named Harry… “

meet you in flesh...

Just meet a bestfriend today and spend all day long with her. She got a job almost a month ago and since then our usual meeting on workdays stopped. We keep chatting everyday, with BBM, and lately with SMS or other messengers since her Blackberry was broken. Sometimes we just say hii... or I reported that I just woke up at 10 a.m., or she told me something stupid like her boss fart in front of her, silly and small things like that. Sometimes we shared about our job, she is an interior designer too, and projects we got.

But all those chats we did everyday can't beat the excitement when I meet her in person. We spent almost two hours after our lunch at the restaurant just to talk. Then a trip to another mall for movie and coffee, walk around to bought birthday cake and card for his cousin. It's a simple day out with a friend. And I had so much fun. ^^

Today's event remind me about a chapter in Mikko's latest edition. It's a japanese comic book about Mikko, a fifth grader. Her friend got a new handphone, and learn to send text to other. At first she thought it's cool because she can chat with her friends. But somehow she felt lonely. And Mikko, with her innocence, said that it's more fun to talk in person than through text on the phone.

It's really complicated in our world now. With facebook, twitter, bbm, ym, msn, etc. we can connect to the world, and the world to us. But despite the benefits they brought, we miss a lot of things too. Maybe a smile, a slight change of the voice tone, the way their eyes twinkling when excited, body language that say I don't like you right now, pat on your shoulder, a hug. Things that can't truly be transferred by keypad or keyboard.

We're all busy people, with a thing or two that always around, needed to be done as soon as possible. Let's just take a break sometimes. Spend just few hours, just to meet the people you care, in flesh.

This is fenny, signing out ~ ~

25 November 2010

Graphic project : birthday card

I didn't have intention to make a birthday car at first. A while after I got the invitation, the idea just popped up in my head. The concept at first was a "window" and it was much  more complicated than the end result. I guess the idea just evolved in the process of googling, fb-stalking, editing. Plus actually I had two deadlines at the time, I was not in the mood to do my work, so I spent all night to make this instead. Hehe...

I must say it looked better at my monitor than the printed version. But everyone like it. So, thanks to my friends, you made my day. ^^

*I just did another project for a friend yesterday, will publish it here soon. XD

15 November 2010

Changes. Move on.

Last weekend I went to Bandung with bunch of high school friends. We visited Kawah Putih and Situ Patengan, and spent lots of time on the road. Most of the time, I felt good and happy. Sometimes I just merely bored. But going home I felt refreshed and ready to face the day.

I'm in the middle of job hunting. Finally I tried to look for a permanent job. Although, I'm still not sure about that decision. I made list of pros and cons. Still, on a good day, I feel content about life, on the other day, I'm upset for being idle in pursuit my dreams, whatever it is.

I'm scared too. What if I do the wrong? What if I never find the goal? What if this is not the path I should walk on? Then I got headache. Hahaha...

Then somehow I realized. All I did were talking about it. But I never actually do something to fix it. I tried to look suggestions from everybody else, while I knew and what will they say. Perhaps I don't know the answers to those questions. But maybe... I know the little steps I must take. I'm just to afraid to do so.

I've been on the same spot for months, and I really need to get out from the comfort zone. So days ahead, I'll braze myself to take those little steps and bring myself to new places.

Burb. XD

24 Oktober 2010

Little glimpse about last vacation...

Beribu maaf, walaupun rencananya bakal bagi2 cerita soal liburan sebulan yang lalu, tapi karena sudah berkali-kali cerita secara verbal, kok jadi berasa basi yah? Hehehe...

Tapi... I made some notes at the time.I'll share one of those with you here. So here it goes, one highlight of my vacation, Genting Outdoor Theme Park.


Smaller, but more interesting. Itu yang bakal gw bilang kalau ada yang nanya soal Genting Outdoor Theme Park yang dibandingkan sama Dufan.

Karena sudah lewat beberapa hari, euforianya sudah lewat jadi bingung mau cerita soal apanya. Hahaha...

Salah satu wahana menarik yang tidak ada di Dufan itu Bumper Boat. Jadi semacam bumper car tapi bedanya ini di danau dengan perahu ban. Satu kata. Seru! Hahaha... Apalagi dengan sentuhan basah2an. XDD

Kemudian ada Space Shot, Hysterianya di sini. Dilihat dari kejauhan memang seram gila. Tapi setelah dicoba beberapa kali, sensasinya memang mantap. Hahaha... Lebih seru main waktu malam pas sepi, karena naik turunnya bisa diatur oleh si petugas, dan jatuhnya jadi lebih cepat. Huahahaha....

Kemudian ada Gokart. Nikmat deh 3lap serasa pembalap. *apalagi pas ngalahin para laki2, rasanya keren aja, kkk* Awalnya merasa takut karena banyak peringatan dan lain-lain. Dan harus menandatanganin semacam perjanjian. Tapi ternyata tidak terlalu sulit. XDD

Dan highlight dari theme park ini adalah flying coaster. Ini semacam roller coaster, tapi posisi kita tegak horizontal. *kalau kata teman, spiderman* XD sayangnya tiket untuk wahana ini terpisah dari tiket terusan theme park. Waktu main wahana ini, bando saya terlepas dan hilang, hahaha...


*sorry no pics, I hope you enjoy reading it.^^

20 September 2010

Holiday is over... and I'm glad!

Last week I went to Genting, Malaysia for a week. It's my first trip to foreign country and as a result, I learned a lot of things. Good and bad. Hahaha... I can't say it was totally fun, but it's okay. Will share the fun and not-so-fun side of my trip with you later.

At the end of the week, I'm glad when I reach my own home, sleeping on my own bed, with my beloved pillow and bolster. *lebay mode on XDD* I can't wait to go back to my routine everyday. And of course, I want to work endlessly to make up for money I spend on the trip. Tonight is the last night, and I must kill all those lazy moods from the holiday.  Hehehehe...

And if you feel so bad about going back to work, just think about the money you'll earned for another holiday. Don't blame me for being a money-minded one, I spent too much on useless stuff in that one whole week. Kkk.. 

14 September 2010

Twinkle twinkle little star

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are.
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky.
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!

When the blazing sun is gone,
When there's nothing he shines upon,
Then you show your little light,
Twinkle, twinkle, through the night.
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!

In the dark blue sky so deep
Through my curtains often peep
For you never close your eyes
Til the morning sun does rise
Twinkle, twinkle, little star
How I wonder what you are

Twinkle, twinkle, little star
How I wonder what you are

04 September 2010

A Reminder

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage.

We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, when we are able to go on a nice vacation, or when we retire. The truth is there's no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.

Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with . . . and remember that time waits for no one.

So, stop waiting . . .
Until your car or home is paid off
Until you get a new car or home
Until your kids leave the house
Until you go back to school
Until you finish school
Until you lose 10 kgs.
Until you gain 10 kgs.
Until you get married
Until you get a divorce
Until you have kids
Until you retire
Until summer
Until spring
Until winter
Until fall
Until you die

There is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So work like you don't need money,
Love like you've never been hurt,
And dance like no one's watching.

Quote from a friend at bbm group ;)

30 Agustus 2010

Money can't replace love.

But have it a lot will make you feel better...

At least, you'll have a better getaway...


23 Agustus 2010

Maybe people should celebrate birthday more than once a year XD

Waktu di komputer menunjukkan 2.23 AM. Waktunya bobo tuh. Hahaha... Tapi menulis sekarang penting supaya euforia hari ini bisa disampaikan. ^^ *after all, ada yang bilang blog gw suasananya gloomy tuuhh..., hehehe... *

My birthday was more than a month ago. Tapi seperti biasa, ritual traktir mentraktir teman-teman SMA selalu jauh belakangan. So finally, today (or yesterday?) is the day for me and a friend to do the treat. ^^

Merencanakan acara begini itu gampang gampang susah. Mulai dari tempatnya, waktunya, sampai siapa aja yang mau diajak, dan ga ketinggalan budgetnya. Hahaha...

But on the end of the day, it was totally fun. Start with lunch, then photo hunting, and dinner. 

I love every conversations in between. Dicussing about things. Laugh at this or that. Bullying someone. Hihihi.. Even friends at Singapore gave us a phone call. Hehehe...

And I really like to think, I have known them for at least 5 years. We have celebrated each and another birthday together for that much time. How cool is that? 

I don't have any childhood friends. So I think wow... this is so cool. Maybe we're not always together. Maybe we're lost contacts for months and maybe years. Maybe we dislike each other sometimes. And maybe, we're now more keep in touch just simply because Facebook and Blackberry Messenger!

But here they are, celebrated another birthday of two of us. Hahaha....

Kumpul-kumpul hari ini, bikin gw merasakan ngerayain ulang tahun lagi, walaupun sebenarnya udah lama lewat.  It makes me happy.

\ ^o^ /

PS : and I love the presents too, hihihi...

*end at 2.57 am*

18 Agustus 2010

The 5 Love Language

Inget waktu saya cerita soal Pulau Tidung? Nah, salah satu teman ngobrol saya malam-malam, si takapipi, sempat cerita soal Hans dan Shinta, and about their great love stories. Jadilah saya penasaran untuk coba baca cerita cinta mereka di sini.

Nah salah satu post dari sana menyebutkan soal The 5 Love Language. Jadi ternyata kita ini punya perbedaan tentang bagaimana rasanya dicintai. Ide soal lima bahasa cinta ini ada dalam buku Dr. Gary Chapman. Dan setelah baca sekilas, tertariklah saya untuk nanya sama om Google soal ini.

Ini dia keterangan lebih lengkap yang saya dapat dari web resminya.Lima bahasa cinta ini antara lain.
  1. Words of affirmation
  2. Quality time
  3. Receiving gifts
  4. Acts of service
  5. Physical touch

16 Agustus 2010

The world is still,

Like it's waiting for me...

Time comes, then flies back

You move, but stay


Which path you should take

The shadow is slowly here

And I need to run

To where?

14 Agustus 2010

Lately my mood really is like a roller coaster. Light and swinging in the morning, grumpy at afternoon, sad and angry at night. And happened again on the next day. It's not, a very good sign.

PMS-ing maybe the reason. But after a while, I realize, this is me getting bored and sucked up.

Being a freelancer and working at home, it means I rarely go out and meet people. Hell... I even only take a bath once a day. Plus those extra works at home. My mom won't get any maid before Lebaran and my sister already get to college, leaving me all sweaty from sweeping and washing dishes and some other stuff.

I'm complaining about my life here. Hahaha...

It just feels like I have this energy inside of me that can't be released by simply doing my work in front of computer. And moping the floor. 

I feel like some part of me is dying. And worse, they replaced by hatred and anger toward myself. I think that's why at some moments, I feel like a jerk and useless person.

Or maybe again, I'm just over-analyze, worry too much, and should just live my life. 

11 Agustus 2010


I wish...

the universe will told me somehow,

that my existence matters.

09 Agustus 2010

Inception fever... !

How a tiny seed of idea in your subconscious grows 
to inspirations, thoughts, then actions? 


"Dom Cobb (Leonardo DiCaprio), seorang pencuri yang terampil dan terbaik, mencuri rahasia berharga dari pikiran bawah sadar yaitu mimpi. Cobb telah membuat kemampuan langkanya untuk menjadi pencuri bergensi di dunia tetapi juga membuatnya menjadi buronan internasional dan mengorbankan semua yang ia cintai

Saat ini Cobb ditawari dibebaskan dari tuduhan kriminal panjangnya. Tugas terakhir ini akan mengembalikan kehidupan normalnya hanya jika dia bisa melakukan hal yang mustahil. Alih-alih mencuri, dalam misi yang disebut Inception ini, Cobb diminta untuk menanamkan memori baru ke dalam alam bawah sadar targetnya. Namun tidak ada perencanaan dan keahlian yang cukup dari tim Cobb lainnya untuk menghadapi musuh berbahaya ini yang tampaknya mengantisipasi setiap gerakan mereka. Musuh yang hanya dapat dilihat oleh Cobb."

Penasaran karena banyak tweet yang bilang film ini keren banget dan wajib tonton, akhirnya saya menyempatkan diri untuk ikutan. Jujur saya (biasa) masuk studio setelah film dimulai, jadilah ngga benar-benar tahu awal filmnya bagaimana. Adegan Leonardo DiCaprio sedang makan bersama seorang penjahat mungkin, lalu "Mar" yang tiba-tiba muncul, entah kenapa ngga nyambung dengan sinopsi film ini yang saya baca di www.21cineplex.com seperti di atas.  

Beberapa menit setelah film dimulai, yang ada cuma bingung. Alurnya cepat dan berpindah-pindah dari dua setting. Sampai akhirnya menyempatkan diri buat buka link sinopsis di atas lagi di blackberry. Dan ternyata tidak membantu banyak.

148 menit kemudian.... wwooowww! Rasanya sudah berabad-abad ngga nonton film berkualitas begini *lebay* 

06 Agustus 2010

this makes me wonder. i own a blackberry and i should post more often than usual. but then i end up post rarely.

i used to have a nice talk when i meet my friend, but when she got a new blackberry, she practically ignored me.

and because i can browsing with my blackberry, i often find myself don't know what to do in front of my computer.

when we suppose to having fun at a trip, a friend of mine was busy looking for blackberry signal. i did that too, sadly.  

hm... after all.. a gadget has the positive and negative side. 

now i need to keep remind myself to detach from the thing. 

Tidung Island... between disappointments and fun first experiences..

Akhirnya setelah dinanti-nanti, kesampaian juga ketemu pantai. Kali ini tujuan pantainya adalah the famous  Pulau Tidung. Pulau yang sedang in ini terletak di Kepulauan Seribu. Rencana pergi dengan teman-teman SMA sudah disusun sejak bulan Juni (apa Mei yah..?) dan hampir batal beberapa kali. Tapi akhirnya jadi juga.

Buat yang biasa pergi ke pulau, pasti sudah bisa menebak apa yang akan ditemukan di sini. Dan gw termasuk yang tidak punya gambaran bakal ketemu apa. Tentunya gw membayangkan pantai pada umumnya... banyak pasir, ombak, angin laut, bebas main air, bebas teriak-teriakan, dan terutama bebas bermellow-mellow ria di pantai malem-malem. Buat yang punya gambaran seperti gw, siap-siap terkejut. Hahaha...

13 Juli 2010

this year's birthday... XDD

hm... how should i put this.. my day is a bit extraordinary...karena hari ini.. saya harus memperpanjang KTP, hahaha...

gw bukan warga negara yang baik, dan salah satu contohnya adalah, kartu keluarga gw masih terdaftar di rumah yang lama, dan karena segala kemudahan karena koneksi sama kelurahan sana, jadilah kami tidak pernah berniat bikin ktp di rumah baru, hahaha....

hari ini adalah bukti, untuk hidup di jakarta, you really need to know the right people and of course enough money. dan walaupun gw berusaha untuk hidup jujur, tapi yang namanya koneksi dan uang memang berperan besar untuk melancarkan banyak hal. contoh, perpanjang ktp hanya butuh setengah jam dari foto sampai jadi. biasanya... tiga hari. dan setelah gw lihat perlakuan petugas di sana sama warga yang mendaftar dengan cara biasa, rasanya kemudahan gw bener-bener harus gw syukuri. is it okay to thank God for this kind of thing? hm...

dan karena kemudahan itu, sorenya gw bisa sedikit merayakan ulang tahun. hehehe... not much, just some dinner with two friends, hihihi... but i don't know how long till we meet again, since from now on, we'll be so busy and have less time for each other. hahaha...

lalu, tahun ini gw memutuskan untuk membalas semua ucapan selamat ulang tahun, di sms, bbm, twitter, maupun wall fb! sebelumnya gw selalu berpikir kalau membalas ucapan satu per satu itu kurang kerjaan, tapi ternyata asik toh, hihihi...the thing is, i need to be creative with words "thank you" and various kind of smiley, if possible, i add details to my thank-you comments. but it really is fun, hehehehe... you should try in if u never done that.

anyway, tahun kemarin membawa banyak perubahan. dari kuliah ke skripsi, dari skripsi ke kelulusan, dari lulus ke dunia kerja. i meet a lot of new people, well maybe not a lot, but i definitely make some new friends *wink*

so i'm welcoming the new year of my life. but as i quote from someone i forget "it's not the years in life that count, it's the life in those years"... or something sound like that. hahahaha...

in 3.






08 Juli 2010

blabbering... XD

Just few hours ago, I learned the Paul the Octopus is actually an octopus!! Hahahaha....
I thought it was someone named Paul and somehow got Octopus as his nickname.
And worse, I initially thought it was an Indonesian octopus, because as far as I knew, only Indonesian would do such things *rely on an octopus to predict a game's result XD*
Imagine how much I surprised when it actually a Germany! Hahaha...

Then, here's what's going on lately. I'm a little bit jobless. ‎​​(-̩̩̩-͡ ̗--̩̩̩͡ )
That would be means I had too much time and less in my bank account.
Really hope this wouldn't last long.
Freelancing is fun when you have the jobs to begin with. And much much less when you don't. XD

I just wonder how will I use my free time. I have scracth sleeping till noon, reading lots of fanfics, cooking something, and few others on my list.
Hm.. Actually my list is not that long. I avoided go out to stop spending. Leave me al bored at home. Hahaha...

Start to feel ashame to myself for having too much time. Hahaha.. But I guess I just have to appreciate moments like this since who know when I'll start crazily busy again. XDD

And I have a plan to beach vacation in few weeks. Hopefully my friends don't get me dizzy with all the details. I really just want to go and enjoy the sands, sea, and sun. Hehehe...

Cya around....

07 Juli 2010

Movie experience

Gw jarang nonton film di bioskop. Dan biasanya pergi menonton kalau ada ajakan saja.fakta yang aneh mengingat tugas akhir kemarin gw mendesain interior bioskop. XD

Tapi belakangan ini, menonton film rasanya beda dengan dulu.

Mungkin karena terlalu banyak baca recap drama korea di dramabeans.com dan gw kagum banget sama yang merecap (a.k.a si javabeans dan girlfriday). Mereka ga cuma sekedar menangkap alur cerita dari yang terlihat,tapi juga dari yang tersirat.

Hal-hal seperti ekspresi, dialog, suasana, bahkan warna-warna yang digunakan, seakan-akan semua bisa jadi petunjuk penokohan karakter A atau B, kemudian menimbulkan spekulasi kenapa dia begini atau begitu.

Karena itu, sekarang gw jadi kritis kalau nonton film. Dari musik, dialog, sampai plot, pokoknya nonton film jadi terasa lebih capek sekarang. Hahaha...

Contohnya, film yang terakhir gw nonton di bioskop adalah Karate Kid.

Baru ketika sampai bioskop, gw tau ini film Jackie Chan, dan masalah gw tentang film beliau akhir-akhir ini adalah tumpukan klise sepanjang film, walaupun dibuat dengan cukup baik.

Yang pertama gw komentari adalah musiknya, soundtrack film ini pas dan enak didengar. (Dan pertama kalinya ngeh lagu si Justin Bieber XDD)

Tapi tetap saja klise terasa, biar di beberapa tempat klise itu berhasil dihindari. Seperti yang paling gw inget adalah pas Jackie hampir menangkap lalat dengan sumpit dan memakannya, ternyata dia pakal pemukul lalat dan ga jadi makan itu lalat. =P

Bagian yang gw merasa terganggu adalah adegan bullying dari si murid Cina itu. Terlalu berlebihan. But it seems less people think that way. Dan bagian Jaden Smith ciuman, menurut gw itu ngga diperlukan dalam plot, dan rasanya kurang pantas buat anak umur segitu adegan ciuman. But again, maybe that's just me.

gw kurang suka plotnya yang menurut gw kurang mengalir, dan ngga jelasnya alur timeline di sini. Tapi harus gw akui film ini cukup bagus. Hehehe...

Nah kira2 itulah yang gw bilang sekarang gw makin kritis. Ga puas rasanya pulang cuma tau filmnya bagus atau jelek. Tapi jadi lebih mengamati, yang bagusnya di mana, yang kurangnya di mana.

Dan hasilnya, benar2 lebih capek pas nonton film. Hahahaha....

06 Juli 2010

maybe my time is up

Around this time, I feel the same sadness, like someone is leaving me soon.

Maybe it's true, that my time is running out, then my existence to this person will be such a burden.

I wished this time it was forever, that you're the one.

But then maybe you're not.

The one said a person came to you and introduced you to a new world, so I'm thank you, for this world you're in, and you let me take a look of it.

Thank you for the days and night we shared together, it's not always fun, but mostly I'm thank you for just being there.

This is not goodbye, this is just me take two steps back, and stay there.

Then I'll wait... for maybe someday, another round of destiny, will let me by your side again.

30 Juni 2010

my mind is twisted, i asked something that should not be asked, said wrong things, feel bad and worse in seconds, then smiled like crazy, seriously i need help, or maybe a social life, hahaha...

this is only me babbling about some moments in a confusing day, grumble grumble... arghhh... i need to scream till run out of breath, i need to lay down on sands.... i need to smell the wind... i want to laugh like crazy... 

04 Juni 2010

Quote of the day (or night)

“Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.”
Anais Nin

I'm an emotional eater..

When I'm happy 

I eat normally,
put my full mind into it,
and feel great after eating

When I'm worry, 
but I can do something about it

I eat a lot and often,
my mind wanders somewhere else,
then I feel worse after eating

When I'm worry,
but there's nothing I can do

I can't eat,
don't even feel hungry,
just feel gloomy till time heals

30 Mei 2010

It's another loonggg week

You maybe don't believe this, but my computer got another CRASH. And this is for the third time.

Solved with hard dish replacement already, and hopefully I won't have to fave this kind of problem until the next ten years. Sigh..

PS : the last three nights of full moon was AWESOME!!! you should check it too tomorrow. XD

24 Mei 2010

changes... changes

Lots of things can happened in just a week

Computer crash for the second time

Upgrade to windows7

Sleepover at my cousin's home

New gadget XDD

Knowing new sides of some people

Curly hair

And seriously, I have no idea how tomorrow will be.

But still, thank you, thank you, thank you!!


20 Mei 2010

Perahu Kertas - Dee

Review time!! XD

Dah lama pengen ngereview buku ini, tapi sepertinya belum ketemu kata-kata yang pas. Malam ini memutuskan, baiklah, saya tulis apa adanya saja. Hehehe...

Karya Dee selalu bikin gw penasaran. Apalagi setelah baca seri Supernovanya. Satu kata, wooww!! Bisa dibilang, saya cinta berat sama karya-karya Dee. Gabungan istilah-istilah berat, filosofi, dan cerita cinta. Untuk tahu, silahkan baca sendiri.

Makanya, saya agak kaget waktu mulai membaca novel ini. Istilahnya.. ringan banget. Bahkan dibandingkan kumpulan cerpennya yang berjudul "Filosofi Kopi". Tapi mengingat kalau ini cerita yang ditulis ulang, mungkin idenya memang dari zaman isi kepala Dee belum se"berat" sekarang. Hehehe...

After all, this novel is enjoyable. Gw suka gaya penceritaannya yang mengalir. Walaupun lompatan waktunya cukup besar. Merangkum perjalanan hidup selama beberapa tahun kan bukan hal gampang. Tapi.. ini Dee gitu lho.. Hehehe... (oh... i guess this is just me being fangirl XD)


Inti dari Perahu Kertas, kalau boleh saya rangkum jadi satu kata, adalah soulmate. Sederhana, tapi jadi harga mati buat kebahagiaan dua tokoh utama di dalamnya.

Pertemuan Kugy dan Keenan, kemiripan cita-cita dan tujuan hidup, sama-sama aneh. Gw merasa, itulah yang paling diinginkan sebagai calon kekasih idaman (yah minimal buat gw =P). Nyambung dari sananya. Ga pake berusaha buat nyambung. Hehehehe....

Yang lucu, tentu karena masing-masing harus jadian dengan orang lain dulu. Tentu kalau langsung jadi ga seru dunk... Hehehe... Di sini gw paling suka karena, setelah sekian lama berpisah, mereka bisa bertemu lagi, bahkan ternyata takdir mereka itu ga jauh-jauh amat. Seakan-akan, mau bagaimanapun, mereka tetap akan saling terkait. How romantic is that??? 

Waktu membaca ini, gw yang memang suka sama genre drama, jadi mau percaya, bahwa soulmate itu ada. Kalau ada seseorang di luar sana yang ditakdirkan untuk kita. Dan kemudian berharap, bahwa akhirnya akan bahagia seperti Kugy dan Keenan.

And let me share my favorite lines from the novel...

"... Ia tertegun. Juga tidak yakin dengan penglihatannya. Seluruh rongga tubuhnya seketika teraliri oleh hawa hangat. Rasanya utuh dan damai. Cuma satu orang yang mampu membuatnya seperti itu. Dan orang itu tak perlu melakukan apa-apa lagi selain hadir dan ada..."

Hope I'm destined to feel love like this. ^^

19 Mei 2010

the walk...

sometimes at night
i wonder which path to choose
which road to walk
dreams, wishes
and then i feel lonely
because when i look by my side
i feel no one


image from here

16 Mei 2010

Yes.. I miss those phone calls badly

Sometimes I just want to scream that. XD

image from here

Insight setelah menonton sekilas film India

Bosan menonton iklan, akhirnya remote TV jadi sasaran. Ganti-ganti channel dan nyangkut ke film India, pas banget bagian sedang menyanyi dan menarinya. Hehehe...

Muka yang jutek karena mood jelek seharian langsung tersenyum. Bukan karena tariannya bagus, tapi karena mengingat masa-masa konyol waktu film India dulu populer sekali sampai diputar di setiap stasiun tv. Plus karena si pria yang berbadan kekar sepertinya terpaksa (atau memaksa? =P) memakai kaos-kaos ketat yang tidak berlengan atau lengannya kesempitan. Hihihi.... sungguh menarik perhatian.

Tentunya gw nunggu adegan di mana mereka menari mengitari pohon. Tapi rupanya konsep film India sekarang tidak lagi melulu di tengah padang rumput dan di antara pohon. Hehehe... Konsep latar tarian film kini berkisar arsitektural, lobby gedung, jalan raya, jembatan. Sepertinya sih mungkin bermaksud menunjukkan kalau India sekarang sudah modern dan pembangunannya pesat. Walaupun keliatan banget beberapa menggunakan special effect. (Ga komplain banyak-banyak deh, sinetron Indonesia belum ada yang bisa nyaingin XD)

Lirik lagu yang gw ga ngerti, membuat gw membayangkan jaman waktu kecil dulu, ketika film India lagi booming di sini. Bukan soal film Indianya, tapi berhubungan sama mood gw yang jelek seharian.

Gw inget masa-masa kecil gw. Hm... I can't say that I was happy all the time, just less worries. Gw ga punya teman sejak kecil yang masih kontak karena sempat pindah kota. Ketika sudah di Jakarta pun, masa kecil gw juga biasa-biasa aja. Ah.. mesti gw ralat, masa kecil gw agak-agak gloomy sepertinya. Hehehehe...

Kalau diingat, jaman dulu itu, saya tidak pandai berteman. Gw ngga percaya-percaya amat sama yang namanya teman karena menganggap mereka baik sama saya karena mau nyontek PR. Gw ngga gaul, dan parahnya gw suka sok gaul. Hihihi... I didn't fit in any clique, dan ketika punya yang namanya geng, gw baru tau belakangan kalau mereka ga suka-suka amat sama saya. Hiks...

Baru ketika SMA, mulai belajar berteman, itu pun masih jatuh bangun. Berantem sini sana, nangis sendiri. Tapi saya bangga lho masih temenan sampai sekarang. Saya bisa bilang, wah sudah 8 tahun gw kenal dia. XD Seriously a precious moments, and I can call it a start for change in me.

Waktu kuliah, di jurusan kebetulan banyak teman satu SMA. Akhirnya ngumpul lagi kita plus teman-teman baru. It's good, tapi muncul sindrom kurang gaul, gara-gara kenal teman barunya kok sedikit aja. Untung akhirnya masuk UKM Radio. Ketemu teman dari jurusan lain. And it became another turning point, karena saya jadi lebih berani bicara, lebih PD, lebih cuek sama pendapat orang, semua gara-gara kebiasaan siaran dan ketemu sama orang-orang gelo. Hahaha...

I had my down moments. Kalau kamu baca blog ini, you knew when. Started just right after I made this blog. Ketika postingan awal masih berupa puisi-puisi. Hehehe... Tapi saya tumbuh, berkembang, berubah.

Untuk membandingkan diri sekarang dan ketika masih kecil dulu, saya adalah orang yang jauh berbeda. Bahkan sekarang, kalau mencoba ingat seperti apa saya waktu kecil, ga keliatan apa-apa, buram. Mungkin karena alam bawah sadar yang ga mau ingat-ingat lagi. And of course, I like myself now more.

Dan inti dari tulisan yang panjang ini, gw mau bersyukur, masa-masa buram dari kecil dulu, ngga berlanjut sampai sekarang. Saya bertemu banyak orang, mengalami banyak hal, dan bisa jadi seperti sekarang. Hanya bisa bilang terima kasih, buat Tuhan, buat teman-teman, buat dunia. Thank you very much!!! ^^

Bingung kan karena film India aja bisa ampe begini panjang? Hehehe.. saya juga bingung. XD

09 Mei 2010

Mengapa sebaiknya kamu tidak menonton sinetron.

  1. Kamu tidak akan bisa menggambarkan denah rumah tokoh-tokoh dalam sinetron, karena adegan yang ada lebih banyak memperlihatkan wajah para aktris dan aktor plus satu lukisan atau vas bunga di belakangnya.
  2. Para tokoh menggunakan make up bahkan ketika tidur, dan warnanya serasi dengan gaun tidur mereka.
  3. Mereka terlalu sering berpikir dalam hati, bukannya menunjukkan dialog itu melalui ekspresi mereka.
  4. Ceritanya terlalu panjang, dan kamu tidak akan habis pikir, kenapa si tokoh jahat masih bisa tinggal satu rumah dengan tokoh baik setelah seratus episode.
  5. Tokoh utama akan dengan mudah berpindah hati, ketika lawan mainnya memutuskan untuk keluar dari sinetron itu, dan orang lain menggantikan mereka. (atau minimal wajahnya yang berubah karena operasi plastik)
  6. Mereka bahkan tidak bicara dengan lawan main mereka, mereka bicara sendiri!
  7. Rumah mereka besar, mobil mereka mewah, ponsel mereka canggih, tapi mereka membeli berlian di pasar. @_@
  8. Seluruh adegan sinetron membuat kamu berpikir, betapa mustahil, tidak kompeten, aneh, dan berjuta perasaan lainnya, lalu pada akhirnya akan mengakibatkan sakit perut karena menertawakan adegan itu.

02 Mei 2010


Well.. it's May 1st, and it's my graduation. XDD

Today was fun. I mean, on my junior high, or my high school prom, I feel little misplaced. Somethings always seems wrong, and I did what I actually didn't want to do.

But today's special. Because if anything's wrong, it still feels alright. I'm with friends I want to be the most, I didn't feel like I have to impress anyone. My mother and brother came. It's not the damn perfect day. But it's okay. ^^

One of my friend congrats me with extra sentence. "Welcome to the jungle." That sentence makes me think a little, then a lot.

Before she said so, I already made up some of opinions in my head. I thought, the graduation today will be the last thing I planned in my transition years to become an adult. Like the make up, dress, taking family pictures. After this, I have nothing else waiting for me to reach that point. You know, like when you're on high school, you want to graduate so you become a college student. Things like that.

All this time, my set of goals depends on what people set on me. Graduation became a must by society. Then my goal is to graduate with good grade.

The question is, if there's no more base like a graduation, what will you plan? what will you do next?

"Hey, you're free now."

That answer hit me.

Excite me.

Now I'm making my own plan.I'll be confused. I'll fall. I'll survive. Things like that.

I don't know what plan I'll make next. I'm still not sure if I want to take a steady job or keep freelancing like now. Even I'm not sure whether I dare to call myself an adult, or merely fresh graduate who know less in the so called "jungle".

I stick to the big picture. Take my own small steps. Then eventually, I'll get there, or perhaps a better place.

30 April 2010

I'm going to be 23

Last morning on April, and I sit in front of my computer, tired from everything happened this week.

My computer crashed.

A temperamental conversation with a client.

Fitting twice.

Kinokuniya sale and Sushi Tei.


A program which can't be installed properly.

Future projects.

Slightly broken heart.

And suddenly I realize that in another two months, I'll be 23. A bestfriend is getting married. Another will graduate. Then I remember lots... lots of moments happened from the day I turned 22.

Somehow I miss the days when I can sleep and wake up late without any worries.

29 Maret 2010


First time got an award... yeay!!! Thank you Pejeng, ah... miss the moments when some people call me "baka". Never heard since I retired from radio. XD

Anyway, the rules are :
1. Post the award on your blog
2. Link the person who has given you the award.
3. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you adore
4. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they've been nominated.

I pass this award to...
1. Joie - a blog which introduced me to a lot of design web
2. Dea - a friend's blog with her insight about life.
3. Be - really interesting to read what's going on in her mind

Hah? I only can find 3 blogs? Hahaha...

Shy laugh.... XD

I failed my resolution again, hahahaha... Not because I don't want to post daily, it's just I have some works. You know... I'm busy... (excuse excuse excuse XD )

Anyway, I have some ideas to write. But my writing nerve just won't work out around this time. Perhaps because I'm craving for long sleep and tired of work. Specially if I don't get paid for it (all those revision... why bother call it revision when almost everything needs to redraw) Well.... I've finished that, and now I feel a bit weird because of free moment. Hahaha....

12 Maret 2010

No. Not yet.

Someone asked today, " Do you have someone that really understand you, both inside and outside? "

I answered, "No. Not yet."

11 Maret 2010

I want a kiss in the rain

I want a smile to the voice

I want hearbeats to the look

I want to shiver from the touch

I want a kiss in the rain

Freelancing @_@

Kerja di rumah beberapa hari ini. Masih antara sadar dan tidak karena jam tidur berantakan. Beginilah kalau dikejar-kejar deadline. Serasa kembali mengerjakan skripsi. Tidak sadar jam, hari, dan tanggal berapa. Yang keliatan cuma deadline di depan mata. Hahaha...

Tapi selesai sudah. Setidaknya untuk hari ini. Besok libur dulu. ehm... ada proyek lain yang harus dikerjakan lho... Intinya libur, bisa tidur nyenyak dulu malam ini. Hahahaha....

Anyway, ini salah satu hasil memeras keringat beberapa hari ini. Boleh bangga dunk karena hasilnya lumayan bagus....? **niat pamer** =P

See ya folks, meet you all in my dreams!! 

07 Maret 2010

Busy time but keep refreshing!

Very grateful this week, because I got another freelance job offer, although with super tight deadline. And I still managed to meet some friends, watched movie, and enjoyed sushi time. (It's funny, when I have no job, there's no such event, hahahaha...)
So, I watched Alice in Wonderland yesterday.  It's quite refreshing since last movies I watched full with cliche dialogue. I almost can figured out what the character going to do or say next. I guess, all those animation effects help a lot, huh? =P

This movie is nice. But because I'm a fan of drama and storyline, this movie just too short. I like all of the character, but the director didn't "dig" their personality enough. Like the very short explanation for Hatter's shizo, why the Red Queen hate White Queen so much, who is the King? where is Alice's Dad now? I didn't catch them. But like my friend said, if the movie had to explain all of them, it would be done by tomorrow. Hehehe....

Taking some time to update blog between works. That's also fun. XD

05 Maret 2010

Driving Lesson...

One of my mission post final projects is to get driving lesson. And finally I got it, and it's already ninth time. I only have the last hour for practice with special car, but still not really able to grab the feeling to drive a car.

But it's okay. Driving is all about practice and practice after all. I just wish my dad will let me to drive his car sometimes. Hohohoho....
Practice until I can drive an open roofed car for sightseeing at the mountain. Yeay!!

Indulge myself XD

~~First post for March Resolution..!!~~

First destination, Lux Beauty Lounge. Scrubbing, sauna, bathing. 
Hairdo,make up. Discount, free drink, photo shoot. 
Cozy, clean, happy. 

Second, Pancious Pancake. 1st time. Very delicious!

Lots of talk. Laugh and smile. 
Unexpected event. Unexpected meeting.

Love today!!

03 Maret 2010

March resolution!!

Hm... after some blogwalking,
I'm thinking to update my blog at least once every single day.
This is going to be fun.

image from gettyimages


Hm... Thinking about having one of this.
What do you think?


it's in the small things..

14 Februari 2010


Happy Chinese New Year.
Wish you health and prosperity in the Tiger year.

13 Februari 2010

Kalau Facebook berbayar??

*** Wah... baru tahu soal format edit post yang baru, akhirnya saya bisa juga bikin tulisan yang dicoret begini, hahahaha.... menemukan hal baru itu menyenangkan, hehehe... hm... kira2 fontnya bisa diganti ga ya??ntah kenapa jadi kecil dan aneh.... =P***

Katanya, Facebook akan mulai berbayar mulai bulan Juli. Saya tidak tahu pasti. Cuma membaca sejumlah teman yang bergabung dengan grup untuk menolak itu di halaman beranda. (Iya, saya pakai FB berbahasa Indonesia, boleh donk cinta bahasa negeri sendiri.)

**dan pada saat gw menulis post ini, TV menyiarkan berita tebaru soal penculikan melalui Facebook, semoga ayahku tercinta yang menonton ini tidak ikut-ikutan heboh, hehehe...***

Lalu kemudian, seorang teman kembali mengabarkan itu lewat chating. Sekadar ngomong sih, tapi jadi mengundang opini.  

Menurut saya, tidak salah kok FB itu berbayar. Walaupun alasannya benar-benar subjektif... Supaya saya tidak sering-sering berkunjung ke sana. Hehehe... Kalau FB harus bayar, jelas saya tidak akan ikut-ikutan lagi. Biar d lo kata gw ga gaul

Soalnya, tidak punya akun FB juga tidak apa-apa kok buat saya. Saya jarang update status, terlalu cepat bosan untuk main games dan aplikasi lainnya, tidak berjualan, dan malas upload foto narsis. Tentunya ada saat-saat FB jadi menarik. Kalau baru bertemu teman-teman, terus berbagi foto dan komentar. Atau mungkin ada status yang menarik.

Kalau dikata FB berguna untuk bertemu teman baru... saya suka merasa aneh kalau menerima permintaan teman dari orang tidak dikenal, apalagi mengajak berteman orang tidak dikenal. Bukan sombong.... aneh saja... walau saya suka berteman.  Kemudian untuk mencari teman lama.... hm... dulu saya merasa  tidak punya teman kurang populer. Jadi tidak pernah tertarik untuk berhalo-halo ria dengan mereka. Hehehe...

Apalagi?? oh ya... mungkin untuk berjualan dan promosi diri. Wah.. yang ini belum saya coba. Sudah ada niat, tapi belum dijalankan. Kalau nanti sudah mulai laris... mungkin akan ikut protes, hahaha... Seperti saya bilang, opini saya 100% subjektif.

PS : Saran saya, kalau tidak mau ikut-ikutan FB berbayar, segeralah save foto-foto menarik hasil tag di FB pada komputer Anda, hahahaha.... Saya menemukan inilah guna utama FB buat saya, memiliki album foto yang ditambahkan sama orang lain tanpa menuh-menuhi memory kompi sendiri, hehehe...

PPS : Jadi terpikir... kalau Twitter juga harus bayar???? Hm...

12 Februari 2010

Play tag!

Got this from dian, because i'm so bored, let's play it! =P

lagi di-charge di kamar, tadi mati pas bunyi, kira2 siapa ya... penasaran... >.<


3. U'R HAIR?
di bawah bahu dikit, lagi dicepol

4. WORK?
freelancing... with no job today... =P

have one, masih sma, sibuk belajar buat ujian nasional

good books, nice sleep, my compie

have weird one but don't remember now..

water, chocolate milk

audi! karena logonya OOOO =P

10. U'R SHOES?
open toes, sandals

11. U'R FEARS?
can't make to my highest potential

travelled to at least 5 countries, have zillions money on my account, enjoy everything I do

rasanya di rumah aja depan kompie

keep promises...

high heels shoes

tebing tinggi, lampung, jakarta, still growing up now... =P


pink oversized tee, shorts

Quad core specs,LCD screen, just need to have new speakers, hoho...

20. U'R PET?
never have one, hm... ikan di akuarium ikut diitung ga ya?

21. U'R LIFE?
bit boring now, but everything still unpredictable...

masa2 sekolah di mana yang perlu dipikirin cuma PR dan main.

siapa yang nelepon tadi pagi...??!!

24. U'R CAR?
don't have one

my mom's, jarang ke sana selain buat ambil makanan atau masak indomie, hihihi...

now is yellow...

semalem pas chating ma temen yang sok romantis ga jelas, ah... pengen ketemu anak2 radio dan ketawa ngakak...

weeks ago...

29. LOVE?
need to meet someone new.

mengutip dian -->heh.. sebenernya ga ngerti maksud pertanyaan ini.....

31. Person elected to the tag (tag ini saya wariskan kepada)
ellenlho, dea, joie

Somehow the simplest questions are the hardest to answer...


06 Februari 2010

Quote of the day...or month... or maybe year...

"Those who have knowledge don't predict.

Those who predict don't have knowledge."

~ Lau Tzu ~

25 Januari 2010

The questions I can't answered yet...

I had an amazing week full with its ups and downs. Started with my responsible feeling that I need to as soon as possible, an opportunity which came very suddenly, hard working times, graduation, then... rejection, and mistakes I made.

Between happy and not so happy times, I find myself have to face this two questions. First, "do you really want to be an interior designer?" and second, "what carrier do you want to pursue?"

And, I still have no idea how to answer those.

I have these thoughts while I did my final projects for last few months... that I took this major, finally just to proof something, that I don't meant to be an interior designer.

Silly thoughts actually, after all those negotiations with my parents. My parents are conventional one, they only thought one major when it comes to college, economy. So, it was really hard to convince them. Fyi, there's almost no one in my family took any design major, just explained design to my mother is really hard.

It's not like I really into interior design at that time. I just merely like it, at least the "surface" of interior design. If I think again about it now, maybe I just want to be different, not a "regular" economy major. I just feel like, economy will be too easy for me, and will be so boring. (forgive me for being an arrogant bit*h =P)

But like everyone say, there's always blessing in disguise. If not because I took this path, maybe I will never realize that there's another world called design world. In this world, everything is subjective, everything can be beautiful and ugly at the same time, and 2+2 maybe not equals 4. I have met bunch new people with different dreams. Some of them just dedicated their life to make something beautiful. And that kind of people just awesome.

In not so easy way, I have broaden my world. I learned so many things and know better. And maybe, that's what matter.

Not about if I meant to be an interior designer or not. But what have I learned during those period. And with those lessons, I should be grateful for having more choices.

It's too early for me to answered those questions. How can I decide if I want to be an interior designer or not if I only know very little about it. So for now, I will walk through this path, to learn more and give myself time to figure out the answers.

And of course, I'll try not to let down any opportunity which come to me. Because I know there will be some. I'll make mistakes, that's for sure, but I'll learn and learn again.

I'll fall and bounce back again. Just the way it should be.


17 Januari 2010


Argh.... setelah sekian lama kebebasan itu dinanti-nanti, rasanya memang semanis yang dibayangkan, tapi ternyata tidak berlangsung lama.... hiks...

Sidang tugas akhir, seharian di kampus, pulang dengan emosi tidak menentu, tidak percaya semua sudah selesai, tidur.

Hibernasi, tidur seharian.

Kembali ke kampus, mengurus ini itu walau tidak sesuai rencana.

Nonton dan jalan-jalan di mal, menunaikan misi yang sudah dicanangkan.

Mulai khawatir tentang kerjaan, pemasukan, dan masa depan....


Bahkan kebebasan itu seminggu saja sudah hambar rasanya. Rencana leha-leha sampai wisuda terlupakan sudah.

Perasaan bertanggung jawab yang menyebalkan itu yang jadi alasannya. Sudah lulus dari kuliah empat setengah tahun, dengan biaya yang tidak sedikit, kemudian diakhiri dengan tugas akhir yang juga biayanya bukan kecil, rasanya malu sekali minta uang saku dari orang tua, padahal predikat lulus sudah di pundak.

**well, belum secara resmi lulus sih, tapi kira-kira seperti itu..**

Hati kecil berkata.... I need to work, I need income, I need money. Entah harus merasa senang atau sedih. Senang karena mungkin ini pertanda saya tambah sedikit dewasa dan mulai bertanggung jawab, sedih karena sebagian (besar) diri saya masih ingin main-main. =P

Hhh.... I still have a long way to go. Masih belum mau kerja kantoran, ingin menjadi freelance untuk sementara. Sedang banyak maunya, tapi semoga semua bisa tercapai. Hihihi...

Jadi.... Kerjaan...datanglah padaku!! hehehehe....

12 Januari 2010

Free it is...!!

Pertama-tama, saya mau bilang.... "be careful for what you wish for.." Karena memang itu bisa jadi kenyataan.

Saya berharap bisa sidang hari pertama, kalau bisa jadi orang pertama. Harapan itu muncul karena sudah benar-benar ingin terbebas. Tapi ketika menyadari, sepertinya tidak sempat selesai nih kalau sidang hari pertama, uuppsss.... keluarlah jadwal sidang, dan jadilah seperti yang diinginkan.

Hihihi.... but I must thank God. Karena memang itu yang terbaik buat saya. Bayangkan andai bukan hari pertama, maka saya mungkin masih mengerjakan TA dengan tetes-tetes terakhir keringat, darah, dan air mata (aduh lebai...=P). Kalau saya bukan giliran pertama, maka saya akan merasakan kegugupan dan takut yang dirasakan oleh teman-teman yang lain. Bahkan saya tidak sempat merasa takut karena semua serba cepat.

And I thank God, karena itu sudah selesai. Hihihi.... And I'm anticipating next challenge!!

Nah... untuk misi-misi yang akan dilakukan setelah sidang...
  1. Hibernasi (sudah tidur kira-kira 10 jam hari ini, walau masih kurang, tapi sudah lumayan mengembalikan fungsi tubuh ke normal, hehehe...)
  2. Baca fanfic (perlu cari source baru lagi, hehehe...)
  3. Movies (sudah ada rencana =P)
  4. Mal 2 mal (idem)
  5. Beach time! (harus menunggu semua selesai sidang dunk...)
Tambahan misi lagi...
  1. Driving lesson
  2. Buat paspor
  3. Membereskan sisa-sisa masa kuliah
Hehehe....wish all can be done in January. And people, contact me please if you need an interior designer. ^^

03 Januari 2010

It's getting closer!!!

Seminggu, dua minggu paling lama, dan.....terbebaslah aku dari deraan kuliah empat setengah tahun!!


I just need to think positively about the most stressed out weeks in my life. That the end is near. And after that, I can finally smell the air of freedom (at least until I have to think about work and stuff, but hey.... it's another post to talk about... =P)

Seminggu, dua minggu paling lama..... dan bisa mulai melakukan misi-misi yang membahagiakan.... Kyaa..... kyaaa.....

Need your all hopes and prays so I can pass this peacefully, not with too much tension etc. I'm fine with average-good result. Just...peace in my mind. Okay??

See you when I see you... ^o^